How come I try really hard and then I just embarrass myself all of the time? I feel like maybe its just all gone and I look like a loser. Is it because I'm ugly or weird? Do you think I'm some freak? I wish I knew.
It always sucks when things don't work out. I get so excited or nervous all over nothing. I waste all my time trying to impress you. When you've already decided.
There was a period of time when you did try. Now you make a point to talk to everyone but me. I want to talk to you but I'm too scared. I'm scared of what you'll think. I'm scared of what will come out of my mouth if the conversation does'nt go as planned.
I guess thats alright though. I'll leave you alone. I've recieved the message, I understand. I'm just one of those people. That random girl you are creeped out by. I understand, it makes sense.
I wonder if I will always be that girl.
Will anything ever change?
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